31 July 2011

forgetting

"When I was younger, 
I could remember anything, 
whether it had happened or not; 
but my faculties are decaying now 
and soon I shall be so I cannot remember 
any but the things that never happened.  
It is sad to go to pieces like this 
but we all have to do it."
 
~Mark Twain

I just love Mr. Twain!  And this quote makes me laugh about something that otherwise would overwhelm me: my mom's alzheimer's disease.  Yes, it is sad.  Yes, I miss her.  Her disease is so far progressed that she doesn't communicate at all any more, and she lives 2000+ miles away from me anyway.  I have heard that some people get grumpy or even mean with dementia, but that was not the case with my mom.  When I was last able to visit her she was so funny.  You see, my mom had been a worrier, a perfectionist, a control freak, and at times somewhat critical.  I think she may have even suffered from depression, especially after my dad died in 2002.  But the alzheimer's took all of that away.  She was like a very sweet, silly child. 

This has been a good reminder for me of two things:
  1. I can be a lot like my mom used to be, and I do not want to wait until I get alzheimer's to let go of all of the negatives and allow my family to see a sweet, silly, child-like side of me!
  2. This earthly life and body is only temporary.


3 comments:

Adrienne said...

This is a great quote - and what you took from it ... very poignant

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Ruthi aka abitosunshine said...

Oh my! That is so very sad a quote by Twain, tho' a great one.