I found some quiet moments, and I took a few deep breaths. I picked my 19 year-old daughter from work at 10:30 Monday night, and when we got home, she spontaneously decided to bless me by cleaning the kitchen! Waking up early Tuesday morning, I stopped looking for Advent devotionals, prayers, readings, etc., and I did the ones here and here. I set up our wreath and candles. Last night, I did some decluttering, and some more praying. Again this morning, I lit a candle, prayed, tried to be still, tried to listen. Then I put on my playlist, and I did some more decluttering. Tonight, I cleaned the last of the Thanksgiving leftovers out of the fridge, and I am making a shopping list.
I have a better perspective. Advent is a time of preparation after all, and it is a season.
I read a great post here and was encouraged:
" Where we are is just where we are. Thankfully, God knows where that is and is perfectly capable of finding us and meeting us there. Advent is a season of preparation...a whole season to get ready! It is nice to have some things in order beforehand, but scrambling around in a dither to make everything ready before Advent even starts isn't really good for anyone. "I am starting where I am, taking one baby-step at a time, preparing my home and my heart, and focusing on the Light.