"When I was younger,
I could remember anything,
whether it had happened or not;
but my faculties are decaying now
and soon I shall be so I cannot remember
any but the things that never happened.
It is sad to go to pieces like this
but we all have to do it."
I just love Mr. Twain! And this quote makes me laugh about something that otherwise would overwhelm me: my mom's alzheimer's disease. Yes, it is sad. Yes, I miss her. Her disease is so far progressed that she doesn't communicate at all any more, and she lives 2000+ miles away from me anyway. I have heard that some people get grumpy or even mean with dementia, but that was not the case with my mom. When I was last able to visit her she was so funny. You see, my mom had been a worrier, a perfectionist, a control freak, and at times somewhat critical. I think she may have even suffered from depression, especially after my dad died in 2002. But the alzheimer's took all of that away. She was like a very sweet, silly child.
This has been a good reminder for me of two things:
- I can be a lot like my mom used to be, and I do not want to wait until I get alzheimer's to let go of all of the negatives and allow my family to see a sweet, silly, child-like side of me!
- This earthly life and body is only temporary.